Harder

This move has proven to be harder than i thought.

EMOTIONALLY::: Its been very hard, trying to tel my self Kennedy is everywhere i am. Trying to find a "new" "normal.

I would love to go out and party but I feel guilty. Not for going out but that i didnt get a babysitter , or didnt call a grandparent. I would love to just to be care free but i cant...I AM A MOM. But my child is no longer with us but a mom none the less. I want to have a drink or two or more, but i know that wont make me feel better. to be honest i am afraid of alcohol. I just am.

I am happy to say me and Michael have grown soooo much more close...I guess you can say we went throught the storm and came out holding hands and stonger than EVER.

 

Me and Michael are SOOOOOO strong. Yes we have our weaknesses but we talk....Talk all the time. talk about everything from 8ball to our future.

 

The move has yet to be proven ok for me but i am looking for work something outside of daycare. i think maybe once i am not just sitting at home all by myself then ill be ok.

 

 

 

I am going to send an angel in front of you, to guard you on the way and to bring you to the place that I have prepared.
Exodus 23:20