Every storm runs out of Rain......

"Rainbow Babies" is the understanding that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. When a rainbow appears, it doesn't mean the storm never happened or that the family is not still dealing with its aftermath. What it means is that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds. Storm clouds may still hover but the rainbow provides a counterbalance of color, energy and hope.

In some circles, babies born to families after the loss of a child are referred to as "Rainbow Babies." The idea is that the baby is like a rainbow after a storm. "Rainbow Babies" is the understanding that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. When a rainbow appears, it doesn't mean the storm never happened or that the family is not still dealing with its aftermath. What it means is that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds. Storm clouds may still hover but the rainbow provides a counterbalance of color, energy and hope

Jimmie Wayde......Jimmie after Michael's Grandfather who know has custody of Kennedy and Wayde because we both love the name. Theres Been some questions about His name. Trust me its not the ideal name but the meaning and story behind it make it all worth it. We named Kennedy after My grandfather so why wouldnt we name our first boy after his. Take it or Leave it...its our child i dont ask about your name chooses.

To the greiving mother.......

To the Grieving Mother,

   Whether your New, young, Old or a "Pro", Grieving Hurts. No, its not far or predigest. Loss doesn't look for you, but it Finds you. You were meant for a higher realm of parenting. You can do it even if it feels like you cant. Look to a Higher Power, whether that be God or your belief. You cant carry that burden of losing a child young or old. God lost a child, so why wouldn't he understand. He wants Us to lean on Him in our time of need. Death is a sneaky thing but its a part of life and some learn that far to soon. Our books are pre-written we cant change that all we can do is learn to adapt. You don't just GET OVER the death, you learn to live with the pain of that loss. You cant just let go, you learn to see the little signs sent from heaven from your somebody. Whether that be pennies, feathers, or MOTHS, you learn the signs and you love to see them. Someone once told me that they miss you twice as much as you miss them because they see your pain but cant physically help. Learning the new you will be hard but find that one thing that you love to do and do it in HONOR of your angel. Don't Let others influence you, Don't get mad when they tell you they know how you feel( when you KNOW they don't), Don't ever change YOU. Your angel will guide you to the answer good or bad. Try to never stop communicating with your partner, husband, or close friend. Lean on them and let them lean back.

From one Grieving mother to another......I don't know how you feel but i do know what your going through. Take a shower, scream, cry, let your self feel the pain....Get out an look up and smile because you know your angel is smiling saying "you sure do look silly from my view." Write down your experience's, not to review right away, but rather yet to recall later. Lastly Smile, it wont feel like this forever, you will adapt and learn how to handle the pain.

                                                                                         Sincerely

                                       Cassie--  Grieving Mother

 

I saw you today

I saw you in the wind,I saw you in the moon, I saw you inthe little girl walking past me in the store. I saw you in the way you father looked at me. I saw you in my Smile.

To Know what true lost is, Is to to loose a child. A group that shouldnt be hidden but rather yet SCREAMED FROM THE MOUTAIN TOPS.
A parent should never out live their child, A parent shouldnt be picking out cascket, Before the parent has picked out daycare. I wanna say it'll all be ok but truth is.....It wont. It hurts like hell, It a pain thats worse than anything. I am still walking down the path of angel parenthood, the path unknown, The path less travled. I have a few parents i can look up to but honestly they are going through it to, I have a few that look up to me but they to know i am going through this. walking around places seeing parents who could care less about there kids then theres parent who are new to it and are scared. Then theres me who doesnt fit in to any catagory but why should I. I have found certian things are harder than others.....1st birthday partys for friends babies, knowing Kennedy will be forever 1 or 22days. Knowing Kennedy wont ever smash a cake, knowing that 2,3,4....ect will never come. Yes i have Bug-- Jimmie wayde, but it would have been fun to have all the first with kennedy that Jimmie will get.

Working toward a better tomorrow, Means that today will be a fight but i am ready. Through all of this Me and my Husband are ALOT closer, we are about to know when to push through the pain and when to just snuggle. Watching him go through this is hard, I know hes happy that he is having a little boy but i know secretly he wanted a little girl that would allow him to be "girly"....but i know that when he sees his son he will be extatic.