Letter to him

Dear Jimmie Wayde,


I hope to one day explain all that you don't understand. I hope to teach you right from wrong. We may not always agree but I hope you understand. I know that one day you wont be my baby and ill have to set you free. But Don't forget where you come from or how you got there. One day You'll learn about your sister that's in heaven, one day you learn to count, one day you'll learn that your uncles have probably the coolest things to teach you. Yes you'll probably think mom and dad are dumb and smart. And you might even compare Mary and Joseph's story to our story, But Nothing can compare to theirs. Faith is the only thing you can count on. God is the only Judge not the girl laughing at you. Your Best Friend will always be your DOG! Regardless if they tell you its ok to drink, its not. Your dad is the strongest man I know so lean on him once in a while. Sports aren't everything. Try new thing. Don't be afraid to talk to somebody about your feeling. Crying is ok, it shows your a real man. Feelings aren't just for girls. Tell the Girl how you feel, don't be afraid to ask her how she feels. Communication is key. Your Sister is your guardian angel, speak to her and she'll speak back. I may cry because I think of her while your doing something. Her Birthday is to be celebrated because we survived. You may not understand why I smile at you, just know I love you always. Don't be afraid to fly, spread your wings. BE HAPPY!! See the good in people. See the positive in a bad situation. It maybe hard be try, and when you cant LEAN ON FAITH FOR THE ANSWER. Try and smile through tears and sorrow you will feel abit better.


Love Mom

The Valley of the Shadow of Death

I Have walked through the valley of the shadow of DEATH!

• "Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff they comfort me"Psalm 23:4

Literally, In 3 short months My oldest will be a year. She Is an Angel. I want to celebrate Her Birthday not because she wont be here but as a triumph I and her father have gone through. Simply to say " Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me" To show the world and myself that yes I lost a kid but I have overcome it all.

 

 

 

We want the world to know Kennedy Survived, Though she may not be here on earth she will be forever in our heart.

 

 

Jimmie Wayde due close to Kennedys 1st Angelversy .  Our Rainbow, Our Bouncing Baby Boy............ This pregnancy hasn't been ideal. I have a dynamic cervix. I have Heart burn everytime I turn around. I feel soooo much bigger than I really am, due to him being so big( almost 2lb @26 wks). He Likes to sit directly on my bladder. I cant Do much.......................................................................................................................................But I did say I would gain weight and be on bedrest if that meant the baby was for sure coming home.

 

I have a healthy baby, I cant complain much. we are in the mist of getting ready for him. Prepareing the nursery, registering, planning our trips after him. But in a way I am in slow motion because of Kennedy. Yes I know hes coming home but until he dose I WONT BELIVE IT!!!

 

To Our Baby Boy!!

The Story Behind "Bug"

Jimmie Wayde Thomas-Fuller Due July 25-27,2013

Yes around Kennedys 1st angelversery , Sad YES, overjoyed YES, Bitter Sweet YES. so many emotions in ONE.

We found out November 22nd 2012 (yes the number 22 again), that we were expecting our Rainbow baby. We told only the bare people for fear. Went to a couple of dr appt then told the world. Held our breath until the 18th week(feb 21 only one day after we found out about Kennedys heart) Were Overjoyed to find out everything looked normal but were on tiptoes until the Cardiologist signed off. Found out we were having a Boy...nervous YES but really a BOY. I kinds had hoped for a little girl just because u didn't want to have to change. But Because "BUG" was a boy we NEEDED too. oh And Bug came about because I was SUPER sick until about the 12-14wks. As I look back we are moving faster than Kennedys pregnancy did, because when we found out about her heart our world JUST STOPPED.  We were thrown into the world of CHD's without "proper" education. That's why we Strive to talk about her. Its Like our little Mission to spread the word and let other young parents know they aren't alone.

Only "issue" with this pregnancy is a dynamic Cervix AGAIN!!!!!