2 Years and not a day goes by.....

Two years and not a day goes by that i think of you. Your Hair, Your smile, your toes, YOUR ZIPPER.....YOU! I constantly feel like there's room for more...more kids, more pets. Because to me i'm missing something. And then there are times when i feel i have forgotten you at home, at the store or any place we go as a Family. Your about to turn two and your Baby brother is about to turn 1. He knows you very well. He loved to kiss your pictures and try to say "sissy'. I look forward to the day he wants to know you, I know you'll give me the strength to tell him about you. Its still hard for me and your father to believe your two because to us you'll always be that little 22 day old baby. We picture you as a 4-5 year old going everywhere, asking for things and getting into everything. We will be moving back into Our old home....the home that we had prepared for you. Yes its hard brings back a lot of memories, Your perfect room, tiny girl things, the day we came home without you, your fire drill, you coming off ECMO, You catching a blood infection, DAY 22, Planning your memorial, sleeping through the night without a baby to wake us up(your brother picked up your part). Your 22 days was like  whole year smashed into 22 days. You aged us by 20+ years. You taught us how to be strong in the weakest of moments. You taught us there is life beyond a death of a child. You taught everything does have reasoning, though we may not ever find it, its there. Kennedy Fallyn Thomas-Fuller you'll always be MY baby no matter what age you are. I'll always carry a piece of you with me.

Hugs and kisses
Mommy