Time Marches On

Only time will mend a broken heart....or so they say. 3 years ago almost 4 i lost two grandparents and one uncle and then two years later i lost a best friend. Death is not something you can plan or ever get used to EVER. I have learned that sometimes its better to remember than to try to forget all together.

When i talk about kennedy its hard yes but i enjoy it. I enjoy shareing my daughter with the rest of the word. She really was a blessing.

Thinking about our "future" kids is a SCARY THING. 5% chance of this happening again.....yes thats 95% that we have a "normal"baby but still we started out with a 2% and ened up being in the 2.

I and Michael have gone through so much and are stronger because of it BUT this IS the hardest thing i have ever had to do. Its not really the goodbye its the feeling that i will not see her grow up, kiss her boo boo's, tuck her into bed. I feel like i have been "jiped" of all the little things others dont think about....Changing diapers, poop every where, spit up, late night screaming. ALL THE minut things new parents complain about. Yes its a hassle, yes you may hate the smells and sounds but HONESTLY i would GIVE ANYTHING just to do that.

People have said " If i could take the pain away i would".....I would gladly give this pain away but i wouldnt wish it on my worst enemy. Its not really pain its an ache I WILL NEVER GET RID OF!!!!!


The memorial For kennedy

Above i Posted the link in which if you choose to watch on August 1st @ 7pm you may.