Jealousy.... Someone asked me if i every got jealous of women who drank , smoked, did drugs ect.... I said sometimes but they will have to live with what their choices did to that child. I did nothing, did what the dr's said, listened to MOST wives tales....I did everything right and still ended up witha special baby. Yeah i feel jealous because I had to struggle to have a healthy happy baby, when others didnt have to try to have healthy babys. Most of my friends whom were/ are pregnant I am happy for you, as you watched my childs life began and end, learned alot, leared what to ask for, Yes its painful for me to look at baby pictures but its getting easier. I LOVE CHILDREN. My journey to a family may have been differant but i have learned something no other parent should have to learn SOOO early But the lesson was for me and my husband. If your an angel parent you might might not yet learned your lesson, but i promise there is a lesson, God does have/ and do everything for a reason. OUR journey may have been harder but it makes me love a little hard and longer, Learn to let go when i know i have no control, Love my other children a little extra for/from Kennedy.
So to answer "do you get jealous?".....Its not so much Jealousy, as it is unanswed question left over from Kennedy. I wonder why do they not have to stuggle, then i realize they will, my struggle started early so i could enjoy the little things.....Like waking up to a wonderful, just waking up, Being able to help other angel parents through their personal journeys, being an inspiration to SOOO many that most i have yet to meet. If you have any questions please feel free to ask.
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