A Grandparents Heart: A Yaya Story
It was tough. That's the only word that comes close to describing how it felt. I was there when she took her first breath. She was so beautiful. I was so very proud of my daughter and my son in law. She looked so much like Cassie did the day she was born.
I knew we had a hard fight from the beginning. She was such a fighter.
It was the longest and hardest 22 days of my life. Trying to deal with the pain of watching my granddaughter fight for her life and there literally was nothing I could do but pray and leave her in Gods hands, and watching my daughter hurt so deeply and I as a mom could do nothing. I felt so helpless. I was having a hard time understanding His plan. I had lost my mother in law, my dad, and my little brother all in a span of six months, two and a half years earlier. Now watching my daughter experience a hurt so deep, nothing I did would help.
My mother mode kicked in and I did what I knew best, I took care of them the best I could. Those first couple of nights my daughter wanted me to stay with her and Michael in the hospital, so I did. I slept on the concrete floor in the space of about a foot wide. All I knew was my daughter needed me. I coordinated having food brought in, snacks, drinks, all by friends and family. Whatever was needed I tried to do. Just being mom.
Cassie and Michael showed such strength. I was so proud. In such awe at how they handled everything. They were so young to be handling everything this well.
Kennedy was such a fighter. Kept proving the doctors wrong, pushing the limits. Every time I went in her room, I physically hurt. I would get sick at my stomach from aching so bad. I hurt because I couldn't hold her, I couldn't "fix" her boo boo! I hurt because I didn't know how to help my daughter with one of the hardest, darkest times in her life. Kennedy was such an inspiration to anyone and everyone that heard of her. I never realized until after she passed away how many people were praying for her! She touched people in Canada, Japan, Australia, as well as all over the U. S.
Honestly, I don't know how we all got through everything except to say as a family, we leaned on each other and took turns being strong. With friends and family as our support system and our faith that everything happens for a reason and He had a plan, whether we understood it or not, He would give us the strength to carry on. To know Kenni was in a better place. She had fulfilled her purpose here on earth!
A Grandparents Heart: A Pops Story
The day Kennedy was born was the one of the greatest days of my life-- the joy a grandchild brought to my heart was amazing-- having heard she had a special heart - made me love her even more-- it put my life in perspective that's for sure-- as a parent -- my job is to protect my children from harm or danger-- unable to do anything for my kids broke my heart -- but at the same time a happy heart cause of our first grandchild -- after running through all the emotions -- having to say goodbye to Kennedy was one of the toughest days of my life-- we as grandparents are suppose to spoil our grandkids -- not bury them -- the love this little angel brought into my life has been more than I ever thought I deserved-- I love stronger because of her -- live life to the fullest for because of her-- http://youtu.be/U4yRsT_fPic---
This the song I listen to when I miss her the most and yes because of her --
Love You
POPS
This the song I listen to when I miss her the most and yes because of her --
Love You
POPS
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