i HEART you!! (2/20/12)

So while February 20th was filled with exciment and love. February 20th was also filled a scared and matched feeling EVER.

    This day we found out that our daughter could possiblly have "Hypoplastic left heart syndrome (HLHS)". Which is where her left venrtical is not formed or not formed correcttly. At that moment my heart SANK. I had so many question....would she live?.....What her life expantancy was?....Could she live with it? While me and my husband waited for the drs to get back to me i bagan to think back, Had i done this to her? Was there some way some how i had HURT my unborn child? My husband didnt say much but i knew he was thinking the smae way.

 











We got and appointment with a pediatric cardiologist a couple of weeks later. But durning the time frame i did everything to stay away from everything. I began to trust in God alittle bit more. He had given me and my husband this little girl not only to show us his love but to show us we were strong.....at the time i was angry with him, why me? is all i would ask. But it took an act of Gods good will to show me I was strong enought to handle this.
     The appoinmentt time came and the cardiologist was AMAZING. He told us that everything was going to be fine that the left chamber was a good pumping chamber but he wanted to see us back in a couple of months. So we sat up a  time and waited for that appointment.

May 15th, 2012

This was was exciting and sscary at the same time. I wondered what the cardiologist would say or do. We went back when we were call, the Dr came in. He told us the chamber had grown and was still a good pumping chamber but there was a 8mm hole in her heart and her mitral valve was uncomfortably tiny. but he want to see us back in 2-3 weeks to see where we were at that point and to discuss our options.

June 19th, 2012--- This day we found out what we would expect at delivery. Today the cadriologist told us Our daughter had "Mitrial Valve Stenosis", and a possible disruption of the desending ahorta, and a 5-4mm hole in her heart. Yes the hole had to began to heal its self but her mirtal valve was still way to tiny for her to survive on. The disruption of her ahorta he was still unsure about but he wanted to scan her after delivery in the NICU. I took this all as "good news" She would live and thrive as a normal human being. Yes this all did test my faith but in the end i was thankful God had given this presious little girl to me.