If Refecttion....

In Reflection I have had a few questions I couldn't answer until now......

• What does it feel Like to be an Angel Parent?

Well to be honest when you loose a baby that you only spend a handful of moment with. It feels like you are Babysitting. I have worked in daycare, and gotten really close kids. But this is like having a part of you that you are watching and can do only certain things with. Being an Angel parent, for me, Means I have to push that much harder to help people remember my child. I have Pictures and those Pictures I LOVE to share. If my friends can share Pictures of there Child why cant I? Being an Angel parent means that I have on memories not Moments.

• What is it that's the hardest for yall?

The hardest thing is not being able to parent. Not being able to go to the crib and grab her and love her. Not being able to smell the poopy diapers. Not being woke up at 3am because shes hungry or needs a diaper change. WALKING OUT OF THE HOSPITAL WITHOUT OUR CHILD.

• What's your biggest fear with your rainbow?

NOt being able to hold, love or cuddle him. Not being able to leave the hospital with Him. Not being able to change diapers, feed him.....you name it, Its passed through our Mind.


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